A little update...

I have this superstition...

This is something I've told a couple of people this week, including the one the superstition is about. Basically, I've noticed a pattern that when I talk too much about something I'm really excited about, I end up getting let down or hurt and the thing that I'm really excited for ends up going away. What I want to happen never does. What I'm getting never comes. That sort of thing. So, to protect myself, I try not to talk about certain things, especially the things I'm incredibly excited about.

I'm at this point in my life right now. Good, no GREAT, things have been happening me since the beginning of the year. I'm now seeing someone who I'm really starting to get into. And she's into me.

For me, this is the scariest and most confusing time of a new relationship. I have insecurities I have to push past, but I feel like if I do, the end reward will be totally worth it. I have to remember to just take things one day at a time and not put the cart before the horse, as it were. And I have to remind myself not to come on too strong and to be patient.

Patience is the hardest thing for me. I would like it all, right now, as soon as possible. But I have to just calm the fuck down and wait. And let things happen as they will. I have to get all Zen and shit and be like, "it'll happen when it happens, yo!" And if it doesn't happen, I can't get crazy, but I think I know what I need to do to try to make it happen, so I just have to exercise some control.

Being patient and calm will only help me right now. I can be excited when what I want actually happens. Here's hoping things continue to go well.